Mending Gaps…

So today I decieded to let go…..of something,someone…..of times spend together….it’s like life starting a new life….hopefully will be able to fully start over….and be able to simply swap one love for another.

Maybe I should do this exactly.I certainly want to,quite desperately for myself more than anyone,anything else.There is no point in hankering after the happenings of my previous life.This is what they have been reduced to now….a memory.One of the warmest,most tender memory…..but this is from a life that is gone…..Floating out of my grasp,smiling and winking,ready to burst if I attempted to reacapture.It is true,that they appear at all the worst moments,despite my good intentions like wanting to be assured whether I am ready to move on or not…..

I truly want to believe I have a principle and all the heroism of principle.But I know I owe it to myself to put all of my energies into this new life I’ve embarked upon.I need to put down roots and attempt to survive,whatever it takes….

And certainly there is no place for the yearnings that arise from distant places…..too distant to even know off…….where the coloumns are still being tallied and the dues not yet paid…..