Everybody has only one thing to say to me these dayz…..that “This time is not gonna come back for you,so enjoy while you can”.I coudn’t agree more.Who in a sane state of mind not welcome a new life?Who would give up a chance to start all over again….to feel brand new???
Certainly not me….
But still, before I throw caution to the wind and embark on this new life there are some old scores that I need to settle…..wish it could be as simple as digging up a grave and throwing all these “expired” sentiments,moments,times and leaving them to rot and deccay…..
But how to get rid of losses that now are inreparable?Try harder….they say…
Tired of living in the past when things and times were as good as they could get…..
Tired of living within the confinment of walls self-created and suffer the loss of a broken heart….
Tired of learning to “let go” .Fighting impulses is like trying to win a world war every day.But learning none-the-less….and getting better.
Tired of waiting for things to happen,situation to change…….but realizing at the same time that the probabilty of sun rising from the west is almost negligible….
Tired of running away from the merest hint of love and hoping that there is somethng better out there…just waiting to happen…
BUT none the less,
Patiently waiting for the day when there will no baggage to carry, no broken heart to mend, nobody to wait for…..
Such is my current status………..content with love yet succesfully amplifying being love starved…….ironic yet but with a hint of bathos!!!
