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Losing Face

November 18, 2006

“How not to be skinned alive”…this is all I can think of these days.Wish somebody had written a book on this very important subject to provide me with some insight. But since there isn’t any book to my rescue…..wondering how to get out of some situations without damage?And also cannot help but wonder why are we all obsessed with being perfect or if not that then atleast being in the vicinity of it?In this world, everywhere empasis are laid on expressing ourselves,the way we are. Then why in any given situation,we mentally compare what ”should-be” the ideal way to handle it and how we are going about it?It is literally a graph comparing both the “should-be” and “what-it-is”.Why are we “should-ing” ourselves in all aspects of our lives?Why is the thought of losing face in front of near and dear ones a huge stigma?Aren’t these the very people who care for us without any prerequsite?Then why in our thoughts do we falter and put them on a pedestral so high where it becomes imposible to relate our worries to them and it becomes more of losing face than sharing.SometimesI wish there were no such barrier of the mind,life would be so simple,so umcomplicated..but I

suppose in the real world, that would be reffered

to as living in the perfect world.I wish the word ”perfect” did not exist in our dictionaries,that way no sin would be a sin,everybody would be on equal ground.It would be easier to tell your closest bud how they have wronged you.It would be easier to tell some mortals that their existance matters and that it would be fanastic if they made you feel the same by trying a little harder.It would be easier to tell your parents that you are not even remotely close to what they think you are and what they have been trying to make out of you since you passed high school.It would be easier to tell yourself that you have ended up at the same place from where you started before, only more hurt and confused. And yet after all this break through thinking,I am still doing rounds of the same vicious circle……Any suggestions?